Brain Trees

Now, i have never been diagnosed with anything, but I do know what it's like to be mentally unhealthy. I have spent most of my life literally hating myself and wishing I was dead. I have started to dread doing things because of this insecurity and self loathing. 

I have recently discovered an amazing book called "Secret Lies." She talks about how thoughts are like trees in our brains. The more we think about and dwell on thoughts the bigger the tree grows and the stronger its roots are. These thoughts dominate our mind, even if they are not true. My mind plays tricks on the things I hear and adds to the words people say. Even though I know I am smart, beautiful, talented, etc. those trees aren't as strong as the ones telling me I'm fat, ugly, lazy, insignificant, etc. 

It is a process, but I'm working through it.  I spend time everyday thinking positively, trying to grow my little tree, trying to diminish the negative tree. I am getting better at realizing when I am going down a dark road, and when my negativity is getting the best of me. I am starting to realize the correlation between my good days and the days I exercise. 

If you are struggling through something I encourage you to spend time growing your happy, positive tree and get some weed killer for that nasty negative tree! And work out! Exercise really does help!! :)